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Still waiting to see if time heals all wounds...
Think of everything you would like in a person.
Think of everything you could desire in a person.
If you met someone who embodied a great many of these, how easily could you ignore your attraction to such a person?
How crushed would you be to discover you are the opposite of everything they desire in a person?
Imagine the very existance of your affection for said person was a source of distress to this person...
How would that affect you? How could you survive that?
How could you forget this person, delete them from your mind.. from your heart?
How could you settle for anyone who embodied far less of the things you seek without thinking of the person your heart so pulls you towards?
How could you truly move on, knowing that such a person exists, someone that your heart tells you is so right even when your mind has to keep reminding you that they are not because you are not right for them. You are nothing to them.
If only I could forget this person as easily as I forget everything else
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Not my Soulmate's Soulmate
This ball of earth and rock and water and fire has more than circled our star. Why does it still hurt? Why does my heart keep beating? I want it to stop. I want the pain to stop. I want to transcend this hell of needing physical affection and physical love of needing to connect with the one that feels most right.
People always said I should do something for me, I should be more self centred and do something for me for a change. I have done this, I have given me physical form. But is seems to be completely irrelevant. I could be no more than thought and energy and emotion, like a flash of lightning. Just a retinal after image. I could be a brain in a jar, I could be a machine. I could be the fricken Cloud. If I was, I could be free of this prison. The shape doesn't matter, it is the fact that I am trapped in matter that is crushing.
People would never call me a freak. They would never say I am the impossible thing that I am.But I see it in their eyes, even past the love they have: Does
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Peace in The Mirror, Hell in My Heart
- Invisible
- Unattractive
- Inadequate
That's what little Kitties are made of.
That is how you make me feel, oh vile blood pumping thing. Thou art a fool or the cruelest of villains, dashing my heart upon the rocks of unwelcoming shores.
No demand for the bounty I bear in the lands I yearn for. The cargo rots in the hold.
Tranquility, hope and joy like distant mirages on sand.
Curse you villain. This whoa stains your hands...
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Akimbo
I feel like a monster sometimes. I get home at the end of the night, my eyes stinging, the back of my scalp begging for mercy. I take off everything that makes me feel and look like ME. The world sees me now, but I look in the mirror at the end of the night and I don't see myself and I wonder if there's any hope for me at all. She'd prefer the monster if it were me. But it's not. It's something else my soul can't live in without the artifice required to fill in the blanks and complete the waking dream. She'd love the monster if my soul could live in it without such discomfort and dysphoria because beauty is in the eye of the beholder and to her it wouldn't be a monster at all but someone who could be what she wants, supporting her and loving her and sharing a life and dreams with her as I so yearn to. Everything in my soul, in my heart pulls me to her like gravity so strong it crushes me as much as her spirit uplifts me. I can feel myself falling towards her... but despite everything i
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Bleed through, bleed out.
I know what I must do.
I know what my lesson is.
Despite the fact that I have succeeded at many impossible things, that I have built myself, essentially the impossible girl, I must abandon my belief that nothing is impossible. Sometimes the only thing that can save us is to abandon impossible things. Unrealizable dreams are the quagmire of the soul. This dreamer will try and stick to cold reality from now on.
To believe that dreams can be made reality without a method to do so or some reality to stand on is a fool's game. Like the dream of heavier than air travel before material technology made it possible. I know now that my heart was wrong. My guts, my instincts were wrong. Perhaps feelings left over from a past, future or alternate life where we had a chance. I have way too damned many of these alternate lives with the people I love the most.
People speak of the pedestals I place my loved ones on. I counter that these are not constructions of my mind, but the foundations and the str
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I Murderer
People keep telling me lately how much they're going to miss the old me. How they want to have goodbye ceremonies for something I'd be happy to quietly toss in the dumpster. They knew me through the filter of my disguise. A disguise built of bitterness, frustration and regret. I made it so well people befriended this thing, loved this thing, and worse still fell in love with this thing, even after they knew how much of a construct it was. Perhaps they still could not believe it wasn't real. Why after all these decades of selflessness must THIS be what I need for myself? To slam the door on those possibilities just because for almost all of my life I'd never seen myself in the mirror and it was eating my soul?
No one would ask me to be the old me, to play the old songs. They're too smart, too kind too loving to suggest such a thing, but it can't take the look of loss from their eyes, the feeling from their hearts. It makes one consider the question: what the heck is self? The filters ar
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If only my heart were a brain.
If only my heart were a brain. Or if only it had brains. Either would do the trick.
If it did, it would compute, pare down, it would focus itself only on the small subset of suitable options.
Instead, I simply fall for those who attract me, whose strengths inspire me, whose faults endear me, whose mere smiles lift my spirits and make my heart beat all funny, my tummy get all warm, unable to not reflect their smiles, whose sweet voices calm me, reassure me and make me stronger than I thought I could be, whose mere existence makes my world a better place just by being in it.  I would move planets and stars for them... No matter how unsuitable I may be to their desires.
It is not lost on me that the person I need to be to finally fit in with the world bars the doors I would most like to visit. The dichotomy is tough to swallow sometimes.
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Once a dalek...
Once a dalek...
I try and crawl back under the shattered fragments of my shell.
It doesn't keep the rain out. It spatters and faintly stings my flesh. It falls on me, a mild annoyance, but this is not what crushes.
I thought I could burst out, be me. Free of this armour... this weapon.. this prison.
I saw myself standing proud in the sun, appendages raised skyward, to be seen and heard. To feel the sunlight on my skin, the warmth of even casual human touch...
But I am a squishy crab/squid thing. Even standing on my tippy-tendrils, I'm no more than two feet tall at best. I wasn't meant to be like this. But the shell was the only way to survive the war and the wasteland until life reclaimed the charred land. It saved me.. and ruined me.
So no one notices. Not in the way I'd hoped. I can scream, I can even sing, make the odd person smile at my jokes. But always there is that look, lurking behind the surface like a shadow in the window, staring out from inside wondering.. what IS this alie
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Kitty Welford
Canada
Current Residence: in the cupboard above the kitchen sink

Favourite genre of music: "alternative" lol, I'm old school!
Favourite style of art: pinups
Operating System: Windoze... @_@
Shell of choice: Garthim

Favourite cartoon character: ME! Yes, I am mostly cartoon matter.
Personal Quote: You can run. But you can't run faster than my car...
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GrummanCat Featured By Owner Feb 4, 2011
Thank you for adding me! I have enjoyed your stuff when we met on RCGroups! I dabble in art myself, though the shading on your stuff is exquisite! Did you find my page from my RCGroups post?
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LedKitty Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2011
I do believe I did, but my mind is like a steel trap. All the memories inside are twisted and mangled! :D
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maceobennett Featured By Owner Oct 2, 2010
Hey, I notice you're a Crimson Skies fan.
If you have a facebook, why not join the Crimson Skies facebook page (if you haven't already): [link]

Oh, and if you like Crimson Skies, then you quite possibly like Dieselpunk too: [link]

Anyway, awesome to see there's another CS fan out there.
Cheers, and keep on being a Crimson Skies fan!
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LedKitty Featured By Owner Feb 7, 2011
HI! :D Alas, that would require Facebook ^_^ I do not touch FB with a 30foot pole for my own insane reasons. But woot woot fellow CS fan!

Hey, is it just me or is the Westland Wyvern looks really exaggerated and CrimsonSky'syish? o_0 I know the production version had a turbine, but if you think of the turbine exhausts as really really big piston engine exhausts.. HEY! It's a CS plane! Now if only I could find a 1/72nd scale model that didn't cost an arm and a leg so I could paint it up and prove my point... hmmm...

Cheerio!
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NyxVirtus Featured By Owner Sep 1, 2010
BAM!!!!!!!
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Prowlus Featured By Owner May 28, 2010
Hi ledkitty . I see you like rc planes . I've got both 3 myself yet i'm still a beginner to the hobby .
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Tchitea Featured By Owner Jul 25, 2007
I have finally joined the ranks of DeviantART... I feel my brain melting...
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rakrebs Featured By Owner Apr 19, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
Thanks for the watch thingy.
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rakrebs Featured By Owner Apr 13, 2006  Hobbyist General Artist
Hey....you know my dad. o.o
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kadai Featured By Owner Feb 14, 2006  Hobbyist Photographer
Yay!

Thank you so much for the :+fav:!!!
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